salam...

hari nih bgn tido dgn mood yg tentu. this week i've been doing things tht i shldn't do too much and it has effected me. now aft few months free from it, i have to take it again. by taking it, i'll be much slower, always tired and weak. thts why i dun like to take it. it'll effect my productivity.

yesyterday i suppose to meet my partner and associate in KL but i fell asleep. i am still feel guilty coz i've made sumbody waiting for me for hours. though i've applogize to him but my guilt is still with me. i know how it feels to wait for people for hours and lastly the person didn't show up.

my sis told me that her place got a job offer as admin assistant. with RM1.2k a mth is more than enuff for me to sustain my life. am prefer to live simple. but i have to think bout the kidz, IS and IC. but most important of all of it is the kidz. i'll spend less time with them for sure. while i can spend most of my time with them still problem happens, what will happen if i dun have time for them?

i know my weakness, once am attached to a job that need much of my time outside, lil' by lil' i'll forget bout my responsibility towards anybody that needs me. and my life will be like before. and i dun want that to happen. again.

got an offer to do training on communication in perlis. but am not excited bout it as my feelings says that sumthing is wrong sumwhere. dealing with middle man twice makes me not trusting them. they just go away with my proposals and maybe they are making money out of it though the proposal i prepared is simple and i dun as much effort as i put my effort in other proposal but still it is my hardwork, my effort to prepare it. so, i have a few hours left to reconsider my thoughts. am not saying am not gonna do it coz as i read my email bout it, without delay i did my research on communication skill. i got lots of useful modules and a few games that might help me with it. another issue is payment wise. we will not paid till they got their claim from PSMB. what will happen in that period PSMB and the Govt declare that they will freeze all levi for training. what will happen to us?

it's only 1420hrs now and it is raining here in shah alam. alhamdulillah. but me having cyclone in me coz of what happen yesterday and today.

chow!!!