we meet again. i really dunno what to write my blog till just now. sum1 from my past life called. we talked quite long. exchanging stories bout us. but i do feel like laughing till the whole world can hear me laugh. i feel like want to jump till i can reach the moon. i feel like wanna jump from a cliff till i can dive in deepest sea.....thats is what am feeling now.
i do remember how we met, how things going on between us, and how we got separated.
its all started when my hmate intorduce us. then we spent the whole nite together. when N have to go back to Johor, my 1st suprise was i bought her blue roses as token of friendship. bout a week later we declare ourselves as couple. all went so smooth. but we were separated as at that point N was in Johor and i'm in Shah Alam. then she came again on her birthday to celebrate her birthday with me till i sacrifice my commitment to be facilitator for STPM student in Ipoh. on her 2nd visit i bought her a ring. i also have 1. (sadly my nephew lost the ring...) aft a mth, she decided to come and stay in Shah Alam. 1 incident happen during that period as i went to Johor just to get to know N's life and family when N told me a nite before she meet her ex and they make love for 1 last time. it really hurts but i do believe in giving chances. so i just ignore though deep inside i'm hurt like hell.
Then she came and stay in Shah Alam with me. aft 1 week, she still at leisure. not trying to find job or anything. its not matter of money but am not rich to pay for her expenses.
so aft a week i've lost my patience. scloded her and then she decided to go back to her hometown. i still remember, it was on 1st of may 2008. i was in stadium putra, bukit jalil attending Perhimpunan Hari Pekerja under CIMB Group. i sms N and told that i'll be home ASAP and we will have lunch together. otw home, i bought N a blue rose and a card saying i'm sorry. but when i'm home i find out that she left with a note saying that she'll be back once everything is better. and my mistake is, i called my ex and told her everything that happened. she came, cool me down and she sms N. bcoz of her sms to N, situation getting worse. (i'll tell what happen between me and my ex in my nex posting). and N decided to leave me as she thinks that i'm still with my ex. i was warded in SMC, Shah Alam when N came and she said this will be our last meeting. just consider that we never meet and everything was a mistake.i took quite a while to forget what has happened and i manage to go on with my life. build back my life slowly till i decided to leave my job and join Immortal Spirit Training And Teambuilng as consultant. i started to enjoy my life again though now it my hard time in terms of financial.
aft 9mths later, out of nowhere, N send a message to my YM. and just now she called. we talked and she did ask when am i free. i just told her that i'll be bz all year. i'll call her if i'm free...now i'm listening to song that she gave to me 11mths ago......Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis
i dun understand people. at 1 point can say like this...and later....change their mind and think that nothing happened between us. lucky now i got my family, my biz partner, associates and most important of all, i have good frens that always with me no matter what. thx guys....thx a million....
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