Friday, June 5, 2009

Malaysia Indonesia Disputes



salam...

again we'll talk bout politics and things happening around us.

last week news all over the world talk bout Manohara, a 17 y.o model from Indonesia ran away from Kelantan Palace. She claimed that she was the victim of abuse by Tengku Temenggung. She calimed that she was treated like sex slave and have razor cuts in parts of her body. She was forced to look happy when they attend functions that involves the royal family. They were married for only 8 months but her life was like in hell during that period. She manage to escape when the royal family went to Spore to do further check up for DYMM Sultan Kelantan.

But doesn't it awkards to have reporters waiting for her and her mom in their hotel? What did she really wants? If I may quote my chat history with my fren from Bali..."Manohara and her mom are s***s that needs tonnes and tonnes of money. When they think the target can;t offer them more, then they'll run away with good storylines to attract sympathy.

Ss for me it shouldn;t be a big issue it is just a family affiar. Why should you involve both governments in this? If you really don't want him anymore, just file for divorce and off you go. BY doing this, you might tarnish good realtionship between 2 neighbouring countries.

This week, there's a report saying that Malaysian Navy tresspassed Indonesian border in Ambalat. There were shooting as the new wrote. But as what i read from the Internet, Ambalat issue has been dragging problems to both countries for years. This incident was not the first time but this will not be the last as long as both parties still with its own ego.

Maybe for those who are not interested in world issues, Ambalat situated nearby Sipadan and Ligitan Island. Both countries has been disputing that Ambalat is theirs based on few historicals facts that they have (hope Malaysia side will not lost the important documents again as what we can see from Batu Putih Island which sided Spore due to lost of the really important documents). the MAIN reason both countries really wants Ambalat is because of its richness in oil and gas. If that island has nothing, do you guys think they want that island badly? Meetings were arranged from time to time, every year but still no solution. From Tun Dr Mahathir to Tun Abdullah and now Dato' Seri Najib, i really hope we can settle all the difference so that we can live in harmony in our beloved region.

i attach some of photos that i manage to get from gooogle.

and also history of ambalat based on a blog

http://hamirdin.blogspot.com/2009/05/ambalat-malaysia-mengelat.html

Renung2kanlah......every problem will have its solution. its just how we look at it.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

a word of wisdom from the blogger boy series...

Salam...

Today as usual i do my usual things. same old thing over and over again.

Then me and iwan watched this movie....Journey To The Center Of The Earth. we already watched the movie last year @ sunway pyramid but it has interesting storyline so we downloaded it today. love the story as it bring a message that if you REALLY REALLY TRUST in what you are doing, you may achieve to a level that no one can imagine. never give up with whatever things happening along the way.

back to the title for today, when we watched Blogger Boy through catch up TV just now, there was a phrase when a drug pusher came to see empty room at the flat and they trying to say NO to him, they uses reason that Budi's bro gonna stay with them. then the drug pusher said......

"xper...baguslah pentingkan sedara mara. klau sedara taknak tlg sedara sendiri sapa lagi nak tolong"

i do remember sumbody told me..that i'm too obses with my nephews and niece. it's ot wrong rite? as long as i got satisfaction doing it....sumday i know that though they dun remember me for what i have done but i'll be satisfied to see they become better than who they are now. living in a broken family is not as easy as ppl see but when u manage to give them support they need, they will and i repeat they will better. time will show it.

dah ar. apa ar aku ngarut neh. tp kan...kan...kan.....i really recommend you guys to watch blogger boy series. for me its very fresh. very attractive. watch it ya...

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

hard work...almost paid off

salam.

i'm backkkk!!!! hahahahahahahaha

these few days i'm so damn happy. happy coz all my hard work for the kids almost paid off. 2 days ago we got a mail from China who love the designs and planning to be our sole distributor in China but sadly due to few problems we fail to nail that deal but we still in contact as he always finding new suppliers every month.

then we got another e mail from Ghana wanting us to supply him a very big number of t shirts to them. now me are in the midst of negotiating with MATRADE and our supplier to make sure we will close this deal. and the best part is this Ghana counterpart will pay 80% in advance so we don;t have to spend a penny of our own money to sell the t shirts. once everything ok...it'll change everyone's view on the project itself.

rite now, i'm chatting with my fren from Bali. he also love the design and will try to get his fren who has a fashion boutique in Kuta to sell our t shirts there. he also gave me some of local indonesian internet on9 mall for us to try our luck there.

alhamdulillah, everything is getting better now.

but i'm still doing few proposals for IS. puncak niaga's proposal will be ready by this coming friday. 2 in total.

i never believe problems occurs is the end of everything. it's just a beginning of everything. me being silent doesn't means i'm running away. insya Allah we will close this deal ASAP and all the debts can be paid off. no worries. as what my sis say (shes in marketing industry also)..selling things ae easy if u have faith in it. esp when u r selling ur own products. ur trust will appear in your face, ur conversation and from there u can score sales. it is proven now.

thats all for now....will update u guys later.

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Saturday, May 30, 2009

frustration.....


this the their dream. they have been talking bout it for weeks. they work hard for it. but now i personally failed to assist them to achieve their dream.

aft this their confidence towards me will be much lower. their self esteem that have just build will do down as low as how the economic situation is now. and i will not blame them if they back to their old life. and it'll all my fault. giving them false promises. giving them false hope.

as for me, aft this i will work harder so that they can sell their creation and be proud of it.....

no matter what it takes, how am i gonna get the money but i will find it. i will fullfil my promise to them and make them proud again........

Thursday, May 28, 2009

i'm down but i won;t be here forever.....

salam...

at last, my tears dropped tonite. last time i cried when my mom passed away. and this time i drop it again.

whatever happens now i take it as challenge to myself where i will show to everybody that i will be successful 1 day. and my aim is by end of this year. starting january 2010, everybosy will look up on me again.

i may look useless now. people may think that i'm creating whatever trouble that they have now but by end of this year, everything will change. i know i can do it though i will have to sacrifice everything to achieve it.

hear me, i swear to GOD and to myself that i will never stop until i achieve whatever dreams i have now. i swear to GOD that i will do whatever it takes to ensure my projects will run. no matter how hard it'll be but i will do it. even i have to sacrifice my sleep time, meal time, social time, everything...as long as i can be whatever i want by year end. i will ensure that Insanity Couture will make its appreance and their design will be the best among the best among the best. people will talk bout their design here and there and at that point i can stand up and say...this is what i beleive in even though others dont believe in me or the kids, this is wthat i sacrificed for and now this is what we have achieve. i can walk and talk where nobody will ever say anything anymore.

this is my promise to myself. and just to let you all know, once i've make a promise i will make sure i will fullfil it no matter what.

kids i'm so sorry this sunday we can't make it but aft this i will find way to sell u guys design without anybody's help. its all bout me and u guys. we will show to them that we can do it. AND WE CAN TELL EVERYBODY THAT WHAT WE ACHIEVE TODAY IS SOLELY OUR EFFORT AS PEOPLE DUN HAVE FAITH ON US. BUT I DO AND I WILL ALWAYS DO.

Monday, May 25, 2009

past life, present life and future life

salam....

we meet again. i really dunno what to write my blog till just now. sum1 from my past life called. we talked quite long. exchanging stories bout us. but i do feel like laughing till the whole world can hear me laugh. i feel like want to jump till i can reach the moon. i feel like wanna jump from a cliff till i can dive in deepest sea.....thats is what am feeling now.

i do remember how we met, how things going on between us, and how we got separated.

its all started when my hmate intorduce us. then we spent the whole nite together. when N have to go back to Johor, my 1st suprise was i bought her blue roses as token of friendship. bout a week later we declare ourselves as couple. all went so smooth. but we were separated as at that point N was in Johor and i'm in Shah Alam. then she came again on her birthday to celebrate her birthday with me till i sacrifice my commitment to be facilitator for STPM student in Ipoh. on her 2nd visit i bought her a ring. i also have 1. (sadly my nephew lost the ring...) aft a mth, she decided to come and stay in Shah Alam. 1 incident happen during that period as i went to Johor just to get to know N's life and family when N told me a nite before she meet her ex and they make love for 1 last time. it really hurts but i do believe in giving chances. so i just ignore though deep inside i'm hurt like hell.

Then she came and stay in Shah Alam with me. aft 1 week, she still at leisure. not trying to find job or anything. its not matter of money but am not rich to pay for her expenses. so aft a week i've lost my patience. scloded her and then she decided to go back to her hometown. i still remember, it was on 1st of may 2008. i was in stadium putra, bukit jalil attending Perhimpunan Hari Pekerja under CIMB Group. i sms N and told that i'll be home ASAP and we will have lunch together. otw home, i bought N a blue rose and a card saying i'm sorry. but when i'm home i find out that she left with a note saying that she'll be back once everything is better. and my mistake is, i called my ex and told her everything that happened. she came, cool me down and she sms N. bcoz of her sms to N, situation getting worse. (i'll tell what happen between me and my ex in my nex posting). and N decided to leave me as she thinks that i'm still with my ex. i was warded in SMC, Shah Alam when N came and she said this will be our last meeting. just consider that we never meet and everything was a mistake.



i took quite a while to forget what has happened and i manage to go on with my life. build back my life slowly till i decided to leave my job and join Immortal Spirit Training And Teambuilng as consultant. i started to enjoy my life again though now it my hard time in terms of financial.

aft 9mths later, out of nowhere, N send a message to my YM. and just now she called. we talked and she did ask when am i free. i just told her that i'll be bz all year. i'll call her if i'm free...now i'm listening to song that she gave to me 11mths ago......Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

i dun understand people. at 1 point can say like this...and later....change their mind and think that nothing happened between us. lucky now i got my family, my biz partner, associates and most important of all, i have good frens that always with me no matter what. thx guys....thx a million....

Friday, May 15, 2009

Hari Guru......

Salam. Bertemu lagi kita di alam siber tanpa sempadan ini. kali ini saya nak bercerita tentang keindahan zaman sekolah dulu. mula masuk sekolah pada usia 6 thn d tadika perpaduan sg siput utara. tadika tuh dekat dgn kem PPH a.k.a PGA sg siput utara. nak boleh smp ke sana kena lalu kat jln keretapi. terletak kat atas bukit kecik...sekolah tuh cuma bgnan kayu yg agak usang arr. nama guru pembantu class, cikgu sharifah. sehat orgnya tapi baik. nama cikgu class dah lupa. al maklumlah dah 24thn tglkan alam tuh. sy diketegorikan antara yg bijak dlm class sbb masuk2 jer skola dah pandai membaca. bkn p class membaca awal mcm skng tp belaja membaca ms kakak2 cbuk belaja kat umah. perkataan pertama, AWAS. kat tadika tuh, yg plg igt time mkn. tiap2 ari lain2 menu tp yg plg jd rebutan roti canai cicah gula. berebut2 nak bertambah tp limit 2 keping sorang. bkn roti canai tuhyg sedap tp sbb mkn ramai2. antara nama kawan yg igt ms dlm class tadika tuh, kembar sharifah (anak buah cikgu sharifah), hafizi, yusmalia (my 1st skendel) ngan gunalan.

masuk sekolah rendah pun kat sg siput utara gak. SRK Methodist. sekolah tuh kat tepi jln besar jerk pastu depan skola tuh ada pokok besar. ms darjah 1 kakak aku pernah balik jln kaki smp umah sbb dia risau tak jumpa aku kat skola. kakak aku ms tuh darjah 6. bkn hlg apa cuma slh port tgu dia. menangis2 dia balik umah kata adik ilang. seb bek ar mendiang uncle ho, anak buah ayah dtg ambik kat skola ms tuh. kalau tak sure aku plak yg nanges sbb tatau nak balik camner. lepas pd tuh tobat dah merayau dah lepas skola. kat skola tuh jgk ar aku dpt parut kat dahi sbb jatuh longkang ms main langkah2 longkang. huhuhuhuhu...nakal jugak rupanya aku nih kan. satu2nya nama cikgu skola tuh yg aku igt, Pn K. Kumarakuru chinese yg convert masuk agama hindu. aku igt pun sbb masa darjah 6, dia beli umah kat ngan umah family aku. selang 1 rumah jerk. dia bt rumah tuh jd tadika. mmg berjiwa pendidik betul.

pastu masuk darjah 4, ayah aku pindah ke ipoh. tuka skola ar jwbnya. masuk SRK Cator Avenue. lokasi skola tuh betul2 epan hosp besar ipoh. ada jejantas warna oren kat situ. skola sumer lelaki. aku memula pelik sbb sblm neh aku skola campur. tp lama2 dah dpt geng, ilang rasa pelik tuh. nama cikgu skola tuh yg paling aku igt, Pn. Lee, cikgu muzik. ms tuh, bila kata ader subjek muzik jerk, dah berdebar2 sbb Pn Lee mst pegang rotan bulu ayam tuh. smp tercabut sumer bulu ayam tuh dia belasah. lupa bwk rekoder, kena sebat. tatau nak main lagu pun kena gak, salah masuk tune ms training ngan piano pun kena gak tp aku smp skng tak pandai2 gak muzik. huhuhuhuhuhuhu....mgkn sbb terlalu takut kat cikgu kot. bila masuk darjah 6, setahun tuh aku lsg tak main, tak merayau ptg2 sbb nak bg yg terbaik masa upsr nanti. ayah janji aku dpt 4 A, dia nak belikan aku komputer. tuh yg belaja 3/4 mati tuh. balik skola trus p library awam kat ipoh tuh. lokasi: kat depan ipoh royal club. sebaris ngan bgnan mahkamah majisteret ipoh. sabtu ahad plak aku p belaja tuisyen personal dgn kawan ayah. tp malangnya, bila kuar result, aku dpt 3A 1B. yg B tuh paper karangan plak tuh. punyala frust. lps pd tuh aku jd malas nak belaja tuh sbb aku belaja gila2 pun aku tetap tak score yg terbaik.

masuk skola menengah kat SM Anderson ipoh. alah, yg dulu terkenal ngan hoki team tuh. kitaorg dr SRK Cator Avenue dpt free ticket masuk skola tuh sbb berjiran jerk. mmg jln kai dah smp skola menengah tuh. skola tuh kira skola elit gak arr kat ipoh tp takleh lawan STAR sbb tuh SBP. ms skola menengah, aku tak brapa aktf cuma aku masuk brass band. dpt ar bt persembahan masa hari belia negara peringkat kebangsaan yg diaorg bt kat stadium indera mulia. ms tu la dpt salam ngan Tun Dr Mahathir. rasa mcm xnak basuh tgn jerk ms tuh. punyala bangga.

sekali lagi, kitaorg pindah tp kali nih sbb parents aku divorce and arwah mak aku pilih nak dok kat kuantan, kg halaman dia. aku punya la xnak tuka skola sb aku pkr skola aku skng ada asrama. boleh la aku dok situ jerk tp memandangkan aku anak manja dan anak lelaki tunggal, aku xder pilihan. mak aku tak bg aku dok kat ipoh sorang2. sedey woooo nak pisah ngan kawan2. maklum ar sumer tuh kawan dr skola rendah. mmg dah ngam gila. nama cikgu kat sana aku dah lupa ar. maaf yer cikgu2 sumer.

1/2 thun tingakatan 2 pindah jugak dok kuantan. skola kat SM Sultan Abu Bakar, Kuantan. tepi jln gak skola tuh. tp tuhla skola plng tak besh aku pnh masuk. aku takleh ngam lsg dgn kawan2 kat sana. dahla lepas 5 thn skola all boys, aku masuk skola campur smula. pastu kawan ngan mostly anak2 org kaya nih. aku takleh masuk wooo.....aku ader 2 kawan jerk kat skola tuh. tuh pun kawan baik aku sbb kitaorg tuisyen sama2 masa form 3. idzwan dgn saiful harris. idzwan tuh dak johor tp parents dia antar dok kuantan sbb dah takleh nak kawal dia. saiful harris plak anak pegawai penddikan negeri. dia mmg baik tp malangnya dia disahkan ader ketumbuhan dlm otak. setakat yg aku tau, 4 kali dia kena bedah nak buang ketumbuhan tuh. apa citer dia skng, aku tak pasti. aku doakan dia panjang umur. ms skola kuantan tuh, seminggu 3 ari palng kerap aku gi skola. yg lain aku dok umah. huhuhuhuhu...aku tak rewang tpt lain woo....tp result PMR aku alhamdulillah. 4A 4B. sumer berkat aku tak pernah ponteng class tusiyen aku. berkat aku jln kaki dr skola smp tpt tuisyen aku dlm sejam sehari. pastu balik abg ipar aku ambik aku.

then ms form 4, aku mmg dah takleh tahan dok kuantan. aku bgtau arwah mak aku nak dok ipoh balik. arwah pun setuju sb dia dah tgk kesan pd diri aku bila pindah tuh. dl dr yg tak pandai ponteng skola ke manusia yg tak pandai nak p skola. pindah smula dok ipoh. masuk skola lama aku smula. tp aku jd tak best dah. sbb kawan byk dah takder. sumer kuar p vokasional atau teknik atau mrsm. pastu ms tuh lak aku tgk arwah mak aku susah sgt. nak besarkan aku, dia terpaksa jual nasi lemak kat kedai makan cina kat jln pasir puteh. kedai kopi ah keong. walaupun rezki dia murah tp aku kesian kat dia sbb hari2 lepas niaga dia kena jln kaki masuk kawasan rumah aku lbh krg 1 km+ juga time tghari. so aku bt gila, aku bt keputusan nak berenti skola. sebulan aku tak p skola. dok umah and pkr2 nak cari keje and nak bantu arwah mak. kak long aku balik keje jerk, aku kena maki. mcm tuh lah perjalanan idup aku ms tuh. pastu jiran sebelah aku yg kebetulan cikgu pujuk aku. Ustazah Zaharah tp aku pgl dia Kak Arah jerk. aku pkr2 balik, aku pun smbung skola tp tuka skola yg dkt ngan umah aku. mmg deka t pun 5 minit jln kaki dah smp. Kak Arah pun cikgu kat skola tuh. masuk skla tuh, kak arah dah citer background aku kat pengurusan skola so aku mcm special case ar. dpt keutmaaan dr segal sudut. 2 mgu masuk skola tuh aku dpt jd pengawas smp ader 3 dara pingitan tak puas ati ngan aku. tak berbaik smp abes skola.sebulan pastu aku pegang pengerusi persatuan pendidikan islam. mmg aktif gila lah. lagipun cikgu2 kat skola tuh best. byk support aku. Ms Dena, Pn rashidah, cikgu hairiri (pengetua yg garang), cikgu aiman cikgu HEM, pn siva, ustazah pn tn zanariah tn zahari, dan lain2 yg aku tak dpt nak igt sumer nama diaorg.

sejak masuk skola tuh and lepas aku dihantar ke kursus perkaderan gpms 1995, aku byk berubah. jd baik sket ar. prubahan aku pun sbb perpisahan parents aku pastu kena tuka skola tanpa rela hati masa form 2 - form 3. aku mula la attend mcm2 kem motivasi, jd ahli mcm2 kelab smp aku xder ms kat umah. balik thari jap, aku mandi makan and aku gi skola smula. kalau arwah penat sgt, aku tlg masak dl and back to skul.

disebalik kebahaigaan tuh dtg 1 lagi dugaan. tuan umah sewa tuh tak byr cukai pintu. so org MBI pun dtg bwk surat and kata kalau tak byr jugak brg dlm umah kitaorg akan kena sita. aku pun btau ar tuan umah and aku kata aku nak byr dl duit cukai pintu tuh so kira sewa uamah kitaorg xpyh byr ar smp langsai sumer utang dia ngan MBI. dia marah and halau kitaorg kuar. 2 minggu aku skola tak tentu hala pasal nak carik umah sewa lain tp tak dpt, last2 aku suggest kat mak aku dia gi pindah dok ngan akak aku kat kuantan. aku xmo tuka skola pasal ms tuh tgl 6/7 bln jerk sblm spm. dgn berat ati arwah dok ngan akak aku. aku tgl sorg2 kat ipoh. mula2 aku dok umah kawan akak aku kat gunung rapat tapi sb jauh nak ulang alik gi skola, aku tak stay lama. last2 aku bt keputusan dok kat IGPMS, lahat. dlm 20 minit naik moto ke skola. memula tuh seksa gila idup aku sbb aku tak pernah tgl sendiri. lama2 jd best pasal xder org nak tegur aku. lupa lak, ms aku cbuk nak cr tpt tgl utk aku sblm mak aku pindah, ada beberapa cikgu yg tawarkan bantuan. cikgu abdullah, guru disiplin merangkap guru pengawas merangkap guru sejarah aku offer dok umah dia tp dia kata klau dia balik kg ke apa aku kena crik tpt dok lain sementara. pastu pn siva pun offer tp sb dia bkn muslim ramai cikgu yg tak setuju. aku pernah 1 bln tak skola ms tuh sb aku rindu gila kat arwah mak aku. plan nak balik kuantan ujung minggu jerk. tp lekat smp sebulan kat sana. aku masuk skola smula pastu cikgu abdullah sound aku "saya igt kamu dah mati dah ******". aku bt muka bodo jerk. spm aku ambik tanpa ader family kat aku. mmg tertekan tp tuhlah yg perlu aku hadapi. cikgu2 pun bg support kat aku. smpkan cikgu kaunseling kata aku murid contoh sb aku mampu berdikari pd usia 17thn dgn kena hadapi peperiksaan besar. bangga wooo masa tuh.

kuar result spm, result tak mcm yg diharapkan. aku dpt pangkat 2, 25 agg. tp resukt tuh yg terbaik berbanding kakak2 aku. paling mengecewakan subjek BI sbb aku dpt credit 4. aku ms exam tuh over confident smp aku bt main2. tp dgn result tuh jugak lah aku dpt masuk ITM. ambik coz diploma latihan chef. mmg itu yg aku aim nak blaja dr darjah 4 lagi lps tgk chef wan kat tv and bakat semulajadi yg aku dpt dr arwah mak aku.

sekianlah cerita aku zaman skola dl. kalau kenang2 smula mcm nak skola semuaa jerk terutama masa form 4/5. mmg best skola tuh. sumer cikgu2 dia best. sbb diaorg aku jd manusia yg berkeyakinan tinggi, berani dan berada di tahap aku skng.

terima kasih bt semua guru2 yg pernah membimbing aku. jasa dan budi korang tak pernah aku lupakan. hanya Allah yg mampu membalas jasa kalian. tanpa kalian mgkn aku jd anak gelandangan yg xder haluan hidup.

p/s: kalau ader kawan skola aku yg terbaca blog nih, tlg ar kontek aku eh...windu oo kat korang nak2 geng2 masa SM Kg Pasir Puteh dl.
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